“You’re not normal.” – Mommy
Life on earth for the past few months has been weird, and according to my mother, I am no different. Her reaction was to my attitude as I described loving time at home, going to doctors’ appointments via telehealth, only venturing out for groceries. I’ve had happy hour with my besties on Zoom and celebrated my Aunt’s 75th birthday in the same manner. Frankly, the only thing I can’t wait to do is hugging my 100 year old Grandma, which I cannot bring myself to feel safe doing.
Yes, I understand that I am blessed to have a job (for now!) that has enabled me to work remotely. Though my husband is not working at the moment, I expect that he will return within a month. I don’t take for granted that my situation is among the rosier caused by Covid-19.
Can we finally admit though, that normal is kinda overrated?
For my home – normal is being home one full day together out of seven to see each other – and that day is filled with the things that help prepare us for another cycle of work. In 6 of those other days, we are driving over 50 miles – each – to and from our respective jobs. As much as I enjoy my work, it takes a lot of emotional and physical energy to keep doing it. While I do have what I feel is a robust life outside of work, my fitness pastime also takes work. It’s called WORKING. OUT. It’s in the name. 🙂 Who among us thinks they are paid enough for what they do? As an educator, I’ll have that fight with just about anyone aside from a nurse (thank you, thank you!).
It wasn’t just my mother that called me out, though – my priest did. I’ve been worshipping via Livestream on Sunday mornings and he was lamenting how he missed communion. “People can worship from anywhere, but communion is something done in person.” He got me. People take energy – whether it’s the ones in your house, or the ones on the street. Covid has quieted the most tiring part of life for me – and the indictment from my couch via the pulpit didn’t feel good. “Now I can donate my money and learn and not deal with humanity!” I’ve written here previously about how much effort it is to interact with others, but not quite badly enough to wipe out over 100,000 of my fellow American citizens, not to mention the other million or so in the rest of the world.
Reverend A.R. Bernard says we are to develop our strengths and manage our weaknesses. I would like to say I’ve been using this time for both, but in truth, I’ve just been enjoying the relative quiet. What could be more normal than that?