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One More Time

I amuse my students in rehearsals by telling them the only time they shouldn’t take me literally is when I tell them, “One more time!” This is a “lie” that all music teachers tell, I say. They groan, but they know that doing it one more time will bring them closer to a result they can appreciate. One more time can be the difference between a confident performance and a reluctant one, or it can be the space between a solid, harmonic ending and a stumble across the finish line of our song.

As 2019 concludes, I find myself making resolutions – one more time. Like my students, I groan because I am tired. I wish I could have it all right in this moment, but I don’t. There are many who scoff at new year’s resolutions because of the natural tendency to allow ourselves to lapse, but that is not the fault of the calendar. Why would we fault each other for trying to be the best versions of ourselves? This is a difficult thing to do, all year long!

Even when my students need to play one more time, I make a conscious effort to tell them what they are doing well. I want them to know that celebrating their strengths and managing their weaknesses can happen concurrently AND that I love and appreciate them and their effort. I deserve the same for myself, do I not?

I am thankful that at the end of 2019 I am a tad less cynical than I was at the end of 2018. This is despite not meeting my goal of running 1019 KM, or running a 10 miler with the best Mentor ever, and still being fat. I definitely have to work on this healthy human thing one more time. Look at my 2018 running stats:

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Compare them to my 2019 stats:

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Look how much better I did! Yay, me! Yes, I’m still fat, but I did lose 20 pounds and managed to only gain one pound in November and December – no small feat, between a trip to Jamaica, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. Garmin gave me this badge today:

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I am stoked that I have finished the year strongly. I tell my babies all the time that even if we have a rough start, we can have a strong ending and that counts for a whole lot. I love that Garmin has marked this badge as repeatable, for Lord willing, I will have another strong finish. The tricky bit, as you can tell from 2 years of training logs, is the middle. I want to approach 2020 fearlessly – unafraid to set new goals, but perhaps more importantly, unafraid to RESET old goals.

Happy New Year! One more time.

Miss and Hit: Race Report

The Christmas season may start in earnest after Thanksgiving for civilians, but for music teachers like Lady J, I’ve been professionally preparing since prior to Halloween. Holiday concert number one was on Friday, the 6th, and I had been so stressed and so not running that I thought I would skip out on a 5k for which I registered months ago on Saturday. The Mentor said it would make me feel better, though, and I had the best of intentions to do it.

Womp! Didn’t happen. I made it to bed around 11 and set my alarm to 4:30, but when the husband came into bed late, I was unable to get to back to sleep. I was more scared of the hour long drive each way than I was of the running, and so by 5:30 am, I fell asleep again.

I really hate skipping races for which I’ve registered (unless they are triathlons, no regrets). The only other time I can think of that I’ve missed a running race is when my mother-in-law was literally on her deathbed. 2019 has been a great one, no? 🤦🏾‍♀️ While I think I made the best choice, it still bummed me out. The Mentor texted me to ask how it went because she’s the best, but I waited to reply until…

I showed up and registered for another race today!

Here I am, one of my favorite places in the whole, wide world. The starting line. I’ve been mostly doing intervals since September, if I’ve been doing anything at all. I simply wanted to see where I am right now and how I felt. Run and see what happens!

I chose my Gospel music running playlist. I need supernatural help every day, but today I thought it would be especially helpful. 3.1 miles is a long way! I didn’t have high hopes that I would be able to make it all the way through a song without a walk break, much less a whole mile, but after I saw the first mile mark and I was still trucking along, I started to get some confidence.

Step after step was given to me. I kept marveling at how the body works. The gift of being able to move forward – to walk – much less run – was making me smile as I worked my way toward the finish. Less than 40 minutes before I started, I found myself with Santa!

I. Was. So. Happy!

As I wrapped up some shopping, I heard the awards start and didn’t think anything of it at first. Then I heard some of the times and thought…maybeeeee…and maybe came true!

5th place AG! Not bad for a girl who set her alarm for 4 am this morning and swiped her card to sign up 15 minutes before the start!

I wish my running were more hits and fewer misses, but I am thankful for today! Here’s hoping my next hit drops sooner rather than later…

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